misled

You heard me

You just heard me before I look up to you

You just heard me from my heart

But why it doesn’t make me realize, yet

That I only heard my own voice

That I only placed my hopes in front of everything

And that is wrong, totally wrong

I just don’t exactly know a single word I pray for

I just only come up what I want to pray

Not seeing beyond of these, I just misled

For all this time

I just speak the words not my heart

I just using my own sense not my heart

How long I have been in this way

I don’t deserve to say words

I don’t have a rights to speaks about my life

Just feel it and welcome it

Not demanding and issued

Neither rejection nor unwanted

God, I’ve lost the essence of my heart

Giving me all of your forgiveness