Silence

I've been shouted,
said that im not respectable person.
Don't have manner,
don't have sense
and don't grow up.

I just listen in silence..
I just chilled.

I don't have that strength
to do all those have been spoken.

Im torn..
Im speechless
im deflated..
Im lost..
Totaly..

Is it still deserve for me to say..

God forgive me?